This kid interrupted our routine 5 months ago today, and with every day that passes, i am more and more surprised that my heart hasn’t burst.
She has wrecked me.
On the regular, I weep for the orphaned and the infirmed. I weep for the unloved and the misunderstood. My heart breaks for parents who have lost. It breaks for those who can’t see past their child’s disabilities or past who they love.
I pray that Liv will always know that I am for her. I pray that I will always BE for her. I pray that on the list of things that will inevitably break her heart, my name is nowhere to be found.
i wrote out a long in-depth post and accidentally deleted it. i was able to sort out my thoughts, however, and maybe i didn’t need to do it publicly. bottom line: i am loved well by so many, and i am learning to trust that.
in other news: hello, third trimester! as of yesterday, november 1st, this kiddo has three more months to bake before we get to snuggle the bejeezus out of her!
i work at the university of utah, which is a stellar research institution in the intermountain west. i volunteered for a study for new moms (target gift cards for extra sonograms?!) and had my final appointment last night. we were told that she already weighs 2.5 lbs and is in the 87th percentile. holy moly.
we’re currently on the hunt for bigger digs in the salt lake area. we’ve so loved our cozy little place for the last 3 years, but cozy is quickly turning to congested, as we prepare for liv’s arrival. every day is an adventure, and i’m so excited for all that’s just around the corner.
(disclaimer: this photo is last week’s, because i am looking rather large and in charge this week, and i’m not fully prepared to deal.)
our little lady hits the halfway mark today! we had an ultrasound to mark the occasion, and goodness, she is a dancing queen. i’ve been feeling her pretty consistently, but to see her in action was pretty amazing.
liv also passed the marvin gaye test. we put headphones playing “ain’t no mountain high enough” on my belly, and when they came in big on the chorus, she kicked the hell out of me and started flipping around. we couldn’t have been more proud.
tim and i are recording a few songs this afternoon for next month’s sounds from the lounge series. afterward, we’re looking forward to a lovely weekend of seasonal beverages, pot roast, and college football.
tim fell asleep with his hand on my belly last night, and i couldn’t sleep because i was so happy. it’s amazing the new level of joy, knowing exactly who has been hanging out with me these past 4 months, is bringing. today is conveniently pay day, so along with some maternity jeans and knock off wellies, we’re certain to buy some tiny outfits. i’ve tried to refrain myself from adding clothes to our baby registry, but last night, i couldn’t help myself!
i can’t believe i still have to wait 5 months to cuddle this little lady.
I didn’t button my pants today, and it is one of the most fabulous things I’ve done for myself. There hasn’t been much to report as of late, other than my ever-expanding uterus, and my incredible shrinking wardrobe. Babies of the world are all simultaneously the most beautiful little things I’ve ever seen and the most terrifying representation of what I will never be able to escape. I haven’t felt any real kicks yet, but from the sonograms and doppler listens with my midwife, this kid is an active little bug. Time is moving so fast and so slow at the same time.
We won’t find out the sex until September 13th, so for now, I just watch videos like this one and geek out about how much this kid is going to adore its daddy. I am growing one lucky baby.
we’re gonna have a baby. it is surreal and magical and terrifying and beautiful - and vomit inducing. i’ve been rather quiet lately, but i have a feeling that i’ll be using this forum a lot more in the coming months, as i process growing a human, and as we figure out life as parents. i’ll do my best not to be that mom. (you know the one. don’t make me say it.)
the knowledge that certain inexplicably famous folk were reportedly paid $17.2 million for their sham wedding, and will undoubtedly make countless more to talk about their inevitable divorce, has my mind reeling.
does anyone want to pay me to talk about my happy marriage of three years that my husband and i work hard at every day to keep healthy and fulfilling?
This is a collection of songs that were recorded over the course of a few days with Dan Clark at Green Street studios. With their perfections and imperfections, most of these songs are in their earliest and most naked forms, but we are so proud of them that we wanted to give you a listen. They’re totally free, so if you like it, share it. That’s all we ask. :)